Inside the heartbreaking secret rift of Our Yorkshire Farm as Clive’s unknown daughter Rosie says bond is beyond repair
TO hundreds of thousands of adoring followers, Ravenseat Farm is the idyllic house of Clive and Amanda Owen and their 9 charming youngsters.
But behind the Channel 5 collection Our Yorkshire Farm lies a sadder story for Clive’s oldest daughter, Rosie.
Today the 34-year-old reveals how her relationship together with her dad and shepherdess stepmum Amanda has soured beyond repair.
Rosie, one of two youngsters from Clive’s first marriage, grew up at Ravenseat however now says she can not bear to even drive previous the farm in the Yorkshire Dales’ Upper Swaledale. She provides: “Millions tune in to see this idyllic farm on the TV but they don’t know the heartache behind it.”
Rosie was simply three when her mother and father moved to Ravenseat in 1989. She has fond reminiscences of leaping in cow pats, making potions in the barns and occurring lengthy canine walks on the 2,000-acre “dream farm”.
But her cherished childhood crashed in 1995 when her mother and father ended their 13-year marriage after “falling out of love”. Her mom left, taking Rosie, then 9, and her 11-year-old brother to live 25 minutes away in Kirkby Stephen, Cumbria.
Rosie says her bond with Clive, 67, deteriorated after Amanda, 46, knocked on his door for a piece errand in 1995. When she arrived to ask about utilizing one of his rams for sheep breeding, the home was run down, with damp carpets and smoke-stained wallpaper.
The second Rosie realised her dad, then 42, was in love with the 21-year-old shepherdess was when she discovered a Valentine’s Day card signed “Love, Amanda” in Clive’s automobile.
‘Worried I’d lose my dad’
Rosie was dwelling together with her mum however would keep at Ravenseat on the weekends. It was on one such keep that she first met Amanda.
Rosie says: “She was sitting in the kitchen with my mother, talking. I can’t remember what they were talking about. I think my mother introduced me to her and I thought, ‘Wow, she’s beautiful’. She was quite pleasant, said hello and off she went. They weren’t arguing.”
Rosie was 13 when Clive and Amanda married in 2000, and the couple requested her to be a bridesmaid. But Rosie says: “On the eve of the wedding I started crying because I was worried about losing my dad. It was awful. I used to feel really self-conscious, thinking, ‘What’s wrong with me? What have I done? Am I saying and doing the right things?’”
Eventually Rosie stopped visiting Ravenseat and she or he says Clive has not referred to as to ask her over or requested why she stopped going. She says: “It feels like my childhood disappeared. My childhood home has been completely taken away from me.”
TV viewers beforehand marvelled at Amanda and Clive’s life citing their youngsters — three boys and 6 ladies aged 4 to twenty — in distant Upper Swaledale throughout 2011 ITV collection The Dales with Ade Edmondson. They additionally appeared on telly with Julia Bradbury on Coast To Coast and New Lives In The Wild with Ben Fogle.
Former mannequin Amanda then wrote a collection of best-selling books about life at the farm, placing pen to paper after her youngsters had gone to mattress. And in 2018 the household got their very own collection, Our Yorkshire Farm. As properly as starring in the hit present, Amanda is bringing out a prepare dinner e-book and a calendar that includes the household on the farm.
I tried to look at the present the first few instances however I lasted about 5 minutes and ended up in tears.
She additionally teamed up with a lodge chain to provide Ewe Tube, a streaming platform to assist folks sleep by counting sheep at Ravenseat. The newest and fourth TV collection, which featured the Owen household throughout lockdown, persistently attracted almost 4 million viewers, making it Channel 5’s best-watched programme.
And Amanda, who has 392,000 followers on Instagram, has hinted that extra episodes will probably be screened quickly. Rosie won’t be tuning in, and admits: “I tried to look at the present the first few instances however I lasted about 5 minutes and ended up in tears.
“So I switched off and have never watched anything since. I immediately turn it over. It breaks my heart because it is like watching a past that I haven’t been in for years. It’s like a family that I’d love to belong to but I just don’t.”
Rosie says she struggles to keep away from painful reminders of her loss, as her well-known kinfolk typically pop up whereas she scrolls by means of social media. She provides: “My reminiscences of Ravenseat are lovely, I liked the place.
“I keep in mind feeling free and peaceable and blissful and simply roaming round, exploring. I used to make potions in the barns and get fine details from the pantry and take them to the barns and fake I used to be cooking and the little barn was my home.
“I’d take the dogs for long walks and jump on piles of cowpats and it was a beautiful place to grow up. I miss it dearly. I wish I could reconnect with the place, I really do.”
‘Scars that run deep’
Rosie, who has two daughters, aged 16 and 6, and a 13-year-old son, feels she missed out on a constant male position mannequin to point out her what a wholesome grownup relationship seems to be like.
She says her youngsters don’t have a bond together with her dad, who they name Clive, as a substitute of Grandad. She provides: “They are really good kids who are doing amazingly well so I’m obviously doing something right.”
It is estimated that Amanda has amassed £1million. But Rosie, who survives on minimal wage from her job as a barmaid, feels overlooked financially.
Like Clive, Rosie’s 36-year-old brother is additionally a farmer, working 120 acres in Kirkby Stephen. In July 2018 Rosie married a manufacturing facility employee they usually now share a rented house collectively in Kirkby Stephen together with her youngsters.
Clive almost missed their register workplace wedding ceremony as a result of it clashed with filming. He walked her down the aisle however needed to depart earlier than the reception so didn’t give a speech.
A photograph taken on Rosie’s huge day reveals them standing collectively at the ceremony. But she didn’t invite Amanda. Out of Clive and Amanda’s new household, Rosie says she solely has a correct relationship with their oldest daughter. She says: “I love them all but I feel I haven’t had a chance to have a relationship with them.”
They live this excellent life with all this success and I’m right here with scars that run deep.
And Rosie feels ache seeing Clive and Amanda being doting mother and father to their 9 youngsters. She provides: “They are living this wonderful life with all this success and I’m here with scars that run deep.”
Amanda was barely older than a youngster when she entered right into a relationship with Clive, and Rosie suspects she felt threatened by his younger daughter.
Rosie is a gifted artist. She put it to at least one aspect however took it up once more throughout the lockdown however takes commissions for work.
She heaps reward on her mum, who lately turned unwell and is now dwelling in a care house. Rosie says: “Mum has been sensible, overcompensating for Dad and serving to with my youngsters.
“Obviously I’d prefer to be concerned in my dad’s life once more however I can’t see it occurring. There’s rather a lot of harm and anger and disappointment.
“It feels a faraway dream that I might go and see my brothers and sisters at Ravenseat.
Ideally, it will be good for my household to be concerned together with his household, however that doesn’t seem to be it’s a actuality.
“Ideally, it will be good for my household to be concerned together with his household, however that doesn’t seem to be it’s a actuality. I nonetheless dream about Amanda now. I dream that we’re buddies and every thing is nice.
“We are sitting down having a normal conversation, like mother and stepdaughter, just a normal relationship. I have them to this day.
“But somehow I don’t see that happening, which is sad.” Clive and Amanda declined to remark.